朽木百哉のブォグ

Many a time I would think that I am living in the pugilistic world, where the many sects battle for the sole purpose of power superiority.

Even in my own world, the reality of life makes me co-relate to the pugilistic world, minusing the weapons, poisons and lightfoots, and also the flowy costumes and hairdos.

The battle will continue on the 02/01/2009 where I return to the cyber-pugilistic world before the computer and phone, keyboard and my desk. This period of leave has been fruitful though many a time, felt like being in a wilderness...the purpose of refocusing has been good and allows me to also put aside good time management.

Come December 2009, I will then once again do a reflection of how I fare against the previous years.

I saw myself talking to a guy who looked like the Golden Hair in the serial Heavenly Sword and Dragon Sabre; he broke into a prison and started his killing spree, thereafter walking to a balcony and telling me that insurance is important and I'll help you find out the status of your plan.

Thereafter, I saw a few messengers, who are transported via a bamboo handle guard from building to building, just like how the assasins travelled in the Golden Armour movie, which Golden Hair told me not to bother about them when I noticed suspicious behaviour from one of them who did not just come to pass messages, but the eyes had been wandering around.

We were in a place which was high above ground just like those cable car towers.

Tired from the previous night's battle which had not been successful against the computer just in Medium mode.

Woke up today by a call from Citibank inviting me to apply for a new card, which I had already submitted the CPF statement online. Just need to mail in the application forms.

Quite a mixture of sunny day and I managed to get myself out of home during the day; went to NTUC but could not find the Toyogo boxes for keeping that mass of cables since I hardly use them.

Shopped awhile at Challenger and there was a Jabra BT500 headset which was going at $80 without Members' points; tempting as it may seem to be but I withheld myself from getting it as it would not be necessary. I spotted Jeff from the the third floor but he didn't see me, even when I was leaving Challenger, he was at the food court and appeared to be with someone.

Managed to get some grocery from NTUC and expending all $30 worth of vouchers and came back before dinner; empty sensor has been activated towards the end of the run and I quickly wrapped things up before making my way back.

Good mission done and didn't waste any money; spent only $1.35 for the spillover from the $30 vouchers!

I was talking to Ruisheng and it seemed like a sub-reunion of the Super Gangster; we were at the Central Park near my home which was also the juncture,l between Tampines Central and my home.

There was a discussion about playing basketball and we were looking for a ball, but which I had told Ruisheng that I have 3 in my home; and they appeared just beside me and I told him to pick one; of which the middle one looks like a dull orange, indoor type use.

Soon, I was up.

It was like some sort of military wedding, with a massive banquet filling the entire gigantic void-deck alike place and there were many familiar faces including some from the army.

Before this was held, I saw myself at a car park just in front of the guard room, and a briefing was held on the order of entrance at later part of the day.

Everyone was dressed in No 1, with a white theme across the whole place; mixture of military glam and the best dressed occasion for guys in white tux and suits, white shoes with a snowy setting. All lined up to shake hand with the groom who was of some importance in the military.

Towards the end, I saw Eric talking to 2 chefs as to how to greet this VIP whose wedding was held in a place which appears like a void deck.

Last minute rush to plant some words before the final hour rush for the day!

2 slice of cake from Doris should be able to sustain me throughout the rush hour.

Unable to rest during the short break as there seemed to be many things on my mind about this evening; won’t be abele to go back as per schedule yet. Have to do some door gift shopping during the evening.

Just a couple of evenings more to completion of my work for the day; need some air away from the intensity of the mind; which now like an elongated rubberband.

Light day shower when going for lunch, so had it settled at Jong Ann; noticed an exaggeratedly-dressed guy in suit and some emblem on collar, resembling some MLM lurking around this area. It has reminded me of those days 3 years ago when I was in volved in such too.

Had my workout and wash up done on schedule to go to work; it was a cumbersome awakening as I awoke at 4:3AM but went back to sleep again till 6AM where I jumped started my regime.

It was a most coincidental thing in the world; met Kevin, the Arch-Supremacy Clown who I had not seen for the last 5 years since the armed forces days.

He is still very much the same and has declared of “no retire”, which he hasdisplayed his enhasncedment power for 1 minute, when I told him that Ruisheng I still unattached to date.
Got some tips about financing repayment when releasing my car from ownership.

Great reunion for the Arch-Supremacy Clown and the Lord Clown!

Eyes feel sapped after that 6 hour of overtime; taking the bus home felt like a torment when the heavy droning of the engine disabled me from entering a quick slumber.

Had some dinner at home and spent much of the time catching up with Serene; it was the first time I saw her in person yesterday during the period where we had been chatting on the phone. Nothing beats seeing face-to-face; it makes our conversation all much easier and enjoyable.

So far, the night had felt somewhat still. Tomorrow will be Andy's wedding at ParkRoyal Hotel...if only Monday is leave, so I can drink to my heart's content.

Appeared in an old place which looks like those dilapilated streets from House of the Dead 3, brown, stained and eerie.

There’s this case which a guy who was living on an address starting with No 2, Larkshire Road, who appeared in the news for killing his own child; there’s a pic of him carrying the corpse of the child. To protect his fame, he has come to hunt us to get back that picture, which carried the aura of those catherdral’s stained glass paintings.

With a couple of my comrades, we managed to find the child’s corpse in a really run-down water tank room, with dark brown containers resembling those recycling containers around our neighbourhood.

The body was dragged out but our Surveillance Team has spotted him, hot on his heels, and running to find his way in.

The doors were quickly locked and we found the pic of him carrying the dead child…simply a solid proof to put him out for good.

By this time, I’ve awoken.

1 hour lunch is coming to an end; will be returning to the battlestation quite soon.

Tomorrow will be the big day of our Christmas celebration at head office; it’s been a lot of work preparing the decorations at our place for competition which has already been submitted for judging.

Managed to do some catch up with Serene who has been attached to branch office till next week, and certainly looking forward to see her in person tomorrow; afterall; we have only been conversing through net and phone and inbetween, never got a chance to catch up in person.

10mins more to the return to battlestation.

I was in this place which looked like those old squarish buildings along Everton Park where one of my late uncles used to stay; it was a rainy night and I was driving my pica, yet able to talk to Kent who was driving a baby blue mini van which looks like those schoolbuses during my childhood days; roundish perimeter and roundish lights and snugly cosy.

We were trying to find a place to rest and was moving around this private parking lot between 2 private houses which the ground was tiled; I told Kent that I could rest anywhere for the night and he was with his usual cheeky trademark smile, and driving his vehicle squeezingly through the narrow gap between the two houses; yet the vehicles seemt to be rubber-lined like those bump cars used in amusement parks.

Another scene cut in where I saw Michelle Reis, the celebrity who married a tycoon recently somehow appereared and I got to talk a little to her, and there she was, with her charming and yet so elegant...

Riiinnggg....the alarm clock has asked me to get ready for the morning's workout; thoughts of that scene pondered on in my mind. It certainly was something exciting. For a moment, I felt like my home was the machine with 4 wheels that many have obtained it as a trademark of wealth.

Saw myself at Blk 805 near my place and there was Sasuke who used a technique which allowed him to open a portal of the entrance to Akatsuke's base using somewhat a special type of chewing gum. I was with Kakashi and Sakura in a team on the lookout for the entrance and after spotting it, immediately reporting to Kakashi who was puzzled that it could slip our guard even at such close proximity.

Another scene of myself in a place which resembled my old hometown which was at the village where Aljunied MRT station was, with all the warmth of those olden times; nice smelling noodles and friendly folks around me.

I've awoken several times after dozing off around 6pm, upon returning from Wendy's place for lunch.

Woke up at 10am at the sudden recall of the Double Exp day today and Chungkit had to log off as he has something to do; I played till 11:15am and commenced my workout, and while working out, chatted with him on the phone, and after all is done, made my way down to Wendy's place for lunch.

I was the only friend around as her family members have all come over to her place, which her mother in law has done some cooking; the food is wonderful, and so is the company and we had so much to catch up with; her dog looks so much bigger and she told me that it had been eating and sleeping alot...finally got a chance to carry her and play with her; though it's not the first time I've been to her place.

She has been very hospitable and asked me to eat more and not stand on ceremony...stayed at her place till 3+ where more of her relatives had come over; her husband is working this year as she had told me that he has already got his off day last year during Deepavali.

It was a rain battle when I made my way home, carrying memories of family warmth back. Played 9 Dragons for awhile and took a rest since I'm tired...before I knew it, I had entered the World Beyond Dreamland.

Unsuccessful in getting Elaina to answer the phone to the morning call, but she also did tell me yesterday that her mum has bought an alarm clock for her already; in any case, hope she is able to wake up and not oversleep.

Laying some of my thoughts here before I go to work; had a disruption of thoughts during my sleep last night but it's not recallable at this time.

Didn't hear from Elaina since the last SMS in evening; was unable to reach her via mobile too; well she could have been busy.

A little mind-drained when I got home and by the time I finished clearing PTRs, not much concentration to play 9 Dragons but still logged on to play awhile with my clan. There has been a recent conflict which Kat quarrelled with Andy over trival matters but I shall let it rest and not bring up anymore eruption.

When I got her reply, she was already asleep; at least I hear from her that she's safe and sound before I retire for the night; on the rule of "sleep before midnight".

Heard quite little from Elaina today as she was out with her friend and accidentally left phone on silent mode; I managed to meet up with Andy, Chin and Bryan, the regulars in our 9 Dragon clan, which we chatted for awhile before going around to look for the Nostromo which Bryan intended to get.

We walked around the whole place and managed to find it but have not come to a decision to get it yet; I was also looking at laptops / gaming system to be built so I can use it specially to play games and put less strain on my laptop.

Elaina called me at 10:45pm when she took the wrong bus and waiting for one to bring her back home; it's so wonderful to hear from her again; simply miss her sweet voice too...good thing she slept early too and was already laying on bed when she replied my SMS around 11+. That too, was a time I was turning into bed.

Saw myself in a red-bricked building which appears somewhat a mixture of the colonial building of the olden Singapore; I was there for some events and somehow the place was brightly lit and everyone so well-dressed...it appears to be some kind of banquet and I was dressed in tuxedo and carrying a bottle of wine, greeting friends / acquaintances; somewhat like the Master of Ceremony to everyone.

It was unclear what kind of event, but certainly appears to be an event for the rich and powerful and I was amongst them. This had to be a dream which I was looking forward to.

I had a wonderful time chatting with Elaina; was supposed to meet her nearby her place but thought of giving her a surprise to pick her up at her school as her school hours ended quite late.

The journey was quite a challenging one as I had been seemingly doing a night race, while looking for the mentioned location. In the end, by the time I’ve found her, she has just reached home…in any how, it’s a trip worth for as I am able to find shortcuts for various towns.

Driving past my old workplace certainly does bring back memories of those late shift-hours; the calls, the colleagues, the jokes we had during silent hours…all these will always be in memory.

We went to a nearby coffeeshop which seems new, yet quite incomplete as there are limited stalls and definitely serving limited variety of food. She showed me the pictures taken at her school and she has a nice company of friends…it’s so nice to hear her just talk about what she does during Christmas eve, and the day itself, as she only meets up with these friends once annually.

She only took rojak for dinner, which definitely won’t be filling, but according to her, she doesn’t want to eat anything heavy, so it shall be. I had a fish porridge to keep that stomach warm after all that clouding in the aircon while battling my way to search for her.

We chatted till around 11:30pm and I sent her home, accompanied by her mum’s call while the way back; wish I could spend more time talking to her but time seems to pass so quickly.

Shortly after I said goodnight to her, I entered slumberland.

Had a quick lunch even before the cleaner auntie has finished clearing the bins around office; it’s nice to chat with her as I constantly joke with her as and when I see her.

Elaina just woke up at 10:30am. Hope she’s feeling better as she was having a cold last night, most likely being chilled by the pool water. Her lessons will be till quite late in the evening today, so might not see her online till late.

Am thinking of getting another laptop but have been withholding that back as it’s better for me to invest in education for future and to have a speciality skill in future.

The morning had been quite a challenging one but so far so good on the emotional side, besides some disturbance from calls / SMSes received yesterday. I’m letting the past go and focusing on what lies ahead and achieving what I want in life.

Back to the arena.

Awoken again at 4:15am, I returned to sleep and for a moment, timelost mode was felt. It took awhile for me to recall that it's already Thursday and coming to the end of a busy week; that spells good news too as I had been pretty loaded lately.

Pretty quiet morning as I get ready to go to work after eating, washing up and getting changed.

Managed to chat with Elaina when she returned from her swim around 9+, and have cleared my PTRs so far; and realised that she has got a cold as the pool water was too chilly, but she had felt better after a hot drink; it's already 10:40 when I learnt about it and was going to go down to her place to pass her some flu tablets, but she didn't want to trouble me.

We talked about where to go this weekend and she also mentioned that she would like to cook barley drink for me. aww...it's so sweet... Will be accompanying her for grocery shopping as a "memory card" role though she may not have many things to get. Since she's going to be out till quite late on Friday evening, I'll accompany her back as the road outside her home is not quite safe, especially so for a girl.

We chatted and recalled the time I took her out for supper last Saturday and chatted till the wee hours of Sunday morning; though she doesn't recall, I have the memory at hand; just lacking a few details which can be traced after a short spell of recall. The conversation was ended before midnight to let us each have a good rest.

I was in a rainy and dilapilated, Nazi-style kind of military building where was with a whole group of people; there were lots of noises and people were moving upstairs and down, like after some sort of big meeting, and when I was on my way down, I saw Kevin and Ruisheng, and walked together with them; and heard Ruisheng telling Kevin that their case has been brought up to some military superior by the name of Nor, and Kevin was listening quietly.

The moment seemed short till I woke up adn realised it's only 4:15am.

Tried playing a little of 9 Dragons but seemed to make me even more tired mentally and causing strenuousness to my eyes; I reverted to chatting with Elaina till around 10pm where we decided to retire for the night. I had a fright when I received a call from her this morning but was unable to answer it; later realising from her that she could have called me accidentally; thought someone was trying to bully her in school...good thing, nothing happened...

It's the first time in a long while since I had an early night's rest. The cause of dark eye rings must have to do with this, since I realised it vanished after a continuous period of early night rest which I had done so in a continuous number of days.

Let's do it again.

I left office unexpectedly early with a few complicated matters left to handle, but will need sometime for appropriate action to be taken as time goes by.

Had a good catchup with Lena after work, who also takes the same bus as me since the travelpath of the bus is the same, since she alights earlier. We talked about fishing which was a pastime I had during my teens, along with a couple of my friends, where we used to hang out at Bedok Jetty, under the hot sun and preparing the bait and tamang hook, which was specially used to catch tamang...ah...those were the fun days we had when I was still a student.

Good idea for me to polish those skills but it certainly will be dull to go alone...having a good company is what matters most; I gotta go and find those rods which had been kept away for sometime.

The past days had been pretty sunny within for me, as I got to know Elaina better. Today is the first day of the "alarm clock duty" where I gave her a morning call, and she sounded so dreamy and reluctant to exit slumber; that tone of her voice at that time was so sweet yet dreamy...

Work had been pretty mind-boggling and did not want to game after I came home, so spent the entire evening chatting with her. With all the topics grasped from all over the place, we could simply chat endlessly without having to worry about running out of topic.

She told me about the "hunter" that had been harassing her but on her accord, I'll just spare "it", but it certainly is unsafe for her to meet "it" alone, for whatever reasons it might be, no matter how nice "it" could say. I certainly wouldn't let anyone harm her.

Evening time just slipped by so quickly and before I knew it, it was almost bedtime. I had a thought of having a short chat with her but she wanted me to save money, so decided not to have a phone chat just before bedtime.

The discomfort in my stomach has vanished; woke up and feeling a massive fatigue over me; must be the one tiding over from the previous day.

Getting ready for another day of battle but would still like to deposit my thoughts here. Just a slight spell of sneezing that came along my awakening.

I had a pleasant surprise this morning when Elaina bought me coffee, but didn't get to talk to her before work started as we had a briefing by our Head prior to work. It certainly is different from the one which I usually take from the pantry.

Work had been quite manageable throughout the day but a strong spell of discomfort erupted in my stomach like a national revolution, which I had suppressed it while on the way home to work. It had to be due to an overdose of coffee today.

The continuation of suppression sustained me till I managed to get home and did catching up on MSN, before meeting my clan for awhile just before bedtime.

Saw myself at an old building which looks like those 40 year old housing estate just like the "Smalltown" in Lim Chu Kang which is now a military training area for our local troops.

There was one scene which I was chasing this couple who looks like "nukers" in the 9 Dragons game and one of their name appearing green and the other orange, denoting their level against mine; was trying to throw a nuke to PK one of them in a place which looks like a grassyland.

Sudden switch to a scene where I was fighting a crook who looks like a middle-aged and refined guy; just like those middle age yet rich guy and the place looks like a high tower amidst a town and when I gave him the final blow, my fist went into his mouth and after taking it out, he said to me in a groan "You have paralysed my throat, I shall tell you where I hid all the treasure" Soon, we were sitting down and talking like old friends and I asked how long does he think, will he be imprisoned for his wrongdoings. He said that he's not sure, so I asked what's his age.

"40" was the reply, so I thought most likely it would be 5 or 10 years and told him that. Another scene shows a girl who was by his side to keep him company and she is the "enemy's girlfriend" who said that she wanted to comfort him before he turns himself in.

I saw myself at a place which resembles the entrance to Bedok MRT station which is opposite the bus interchange, but this time, there were trees above me with broken branches, and I was also there, seemingly awaiting for a bus. Shortly, I saw my ex-agent Christina who was also there at a short distance waiting for a bus, and I moved to a spot where I could not be seen by her. A short memory recall that she came to look for my help as she needed to close some deals to tide over the finanicial difficulty faced at home but I had not agreed to meet her to avoid being persuaded into buying a financial product.

Soon, there were some kind of sticky stuff dripping onto me and I realised that it was coming from the trees; there were oozing out some kind of green, thick liquid and suddenly, I saw my colleague Doris who was telling me to stay away from it but somehow I mentioned that it's okay for a guy to get a little dirty / mucky at times.

After awhile, I was spotted by Christina and she started talking to me and I told her that I didn't have the time and had to go...hoping to catch any bus that brings m away from her.

I boarded a Service 153.

After a short trip which was less than 20mins, I saw myself in an old HDB apartment which reminded me of the place Songjie's girlfriend was staying that was more than 20 years old when she has moved in since 15 or so years ago. Kent came into the picture and strangely, the place was all closed up except for a peep hole which had a slide-cover. I saw some lights and quickly shone my mirror and asked who is that, using the light reflection to capture the attention of the "visitor".

The next scene shows Kent entering the apartment and told me that this place has been quiet since the day he moved into "Fatal Frame" (as what this estate was strangely named so). He also told me about the close shaves that he had when he was seriously wounded, and the doctor telling him that his ear could not be saved but yet miraculously he survived, something to do with "Fatal Frame".

It's been several weeks since I last wrote here after being heavily involved in 9 Dragons, where I've found a clan of belonging and have been playing alongside with Songjie, and old pal of 15 years and his friend Andy, who has guided him to playing the correct way.

The workout this morning was done prim and proper with shower and all well ahead before schedule. Still a little unused to my little keyboard which was given by Songjie as a gift.; he has truly been a nice pal despite there being times that I had been teasing him a fair bit.

Good to know that things are going fine for him and his girlfriend after a year or so separation due to family difficulties. Thought that this is a good time for me reflect my thoughts amist all the hussle and rushing in life; leaving me little time to cast some of my thoughts.

Feeling strangely discomfortable in my right eye since morning. After a visit to the doctor, I was told that I had an inflammed upper right eyelid which some eyedrops eased the discomfort, coupled with a good rest.

A rest was done till 2pm where I had some homecooked food for lunch, and did some reading online. Managed to catch up with Songjie over the phone; it's good to have back my trusty G800 which also took great pictures.

Managed to wake up early despite a cold start, after 5 hours of rest. The workout was pretty swift with a couple of short rests between; could do better with a good rest and a gruelling workout to get that feeling.

Fuelled and ready to move out soon.

One of the days where I got home later than usual; am on new task at work today as I got to learn a few more things; skillsets are expanding.

Got teased by June at work for some nonsense again but it's alright; it's really fun to have these people around even at the late hours after work while running through overtime.

Spent quite a short time after dinner as it was soon time to turn into bed.

Saw myself in a building which resembled a very old, one storey building that I always go past on my way to work.

The interior is very modern yet classy touch of the 80s. It seems that I'm working in an office there and we were carrying huge backpacks of what seems like a desktop computer "sales kit", just like those Macdonalds delivery riders. The container lift was pretty narrow and only 3 of us could go in at one time side-by-side, as it was strangely narrow; it took us a while get the lift as it was going up and down for awhile.

Another scene showed myself in it and also saw Clarine in it. Fast forward to another scene where we were given vouchers for a Fish and Co style lunch which was located at a nearby restaurant. I already had my lunch, and saw Lulu and Shirley enjoying the lunch. Shortly, I bumped into Shirley and chatted with her for awhile, suggesting she could move to a vacant room at my house, and she asked me how much will the rental fee be.

Muscles are aching but yet a good feeling to be able to do a toughed workout before I leave for work; managed to reach in time and met Ronald while on the way to work. It's a little intensive due to some system quirks, yet manageable.

I've been officially boarded into the SPICE club in my workplace, so will be having more things to do apart from my daily work.

Somehow could not sleep when on the bus home as I was indeed tired, but seem like over-brimmed and mind could not rest.

Managed to catch up with Dan who has started his uni term again. The evening was a little quiet as I stayed in my room to read up some information about Park & Ride schemes, a good alternative for me to drive to work and have a good place to park.

Retirement at 10:30pm after watching an OVA version of Ah! My Goddess anime.

Saw myself in a chalet and it was rainy outside. Was with 2 girls; one of them with big doe-eyes and had resemblence of Jolin Tsai. She was having some relationship troubles and accompanying her were 2 other girls including myself and invited her to this ministry event in a church. She also told us about some troubles she have within her family.

Fast forward to a scene where I saw Jiaxing, one of my comrades in NS unit who was taking care of ration, and this time, we were in a British-like colonial building where I saw Yiwei and few ex-colleagues, at a carpark which looks like it's nearby a place which resembles the really old service apartments. I told Jiaxing of his responsibilities ensuring ration are taken care of in terms of arrival and distribution.

Soon, I received a call from "LTA Tan" which the name looks familiar, and was asked what's the strength this morning. I thought it was my friend and thereafter only realised it's my NS QM, who was asking me for the parade state, and I was completely baffled as it was only "June" at this scene and not in unit for any ICT.

A quick recap on the day's happenings. It had been a little busy as usual on a Monday with some challenging calls. Christian's back and looking much better after some days of sick leave but it's Robert's turn to be ill this time. Hope to see him soon.

Stayed on a little later to do my overtime and managed to have company after work and had a good catch up with Norizan and Markus along the way home.

Now is the time to rest my mind, after deciding where I can start on my accounting studies.

Flatland, fast cars, IT gadgets. All these may bring me only momental good feelings.

I have to stay focused and gather my funds to go for my studies and get my Accounting qualification. All's settled at work and I'm almost ready to go. I will need to drop these material things to go ahead and get my qualification.

Staying focused with the correct action is the optimum to achieve goal and be successful in doing one thing.

The journey is about to begin...

We arrived at a forested area which looks like an ancient civilisation, and I saw Yuzhen among the 4 of us.

It was supposed to be some kind of training camp and we were not supposed to leave the camp. Walking around the camp area and looking for a way to escape, soon, it was night time and there was hardly any light after a rainy season and we took shelter in one of the stone building, and chatted among ourselves. At one place, there was a girl who resembled Sammi Cheng who kept harrassing me, and both of us got caught in the bush of lalang, but I managed to escape her haggling.

Night soon came. I could not find any light and saw a socket where I can fit in a bulb, and went on to fit in one before switching a switch dangling from nowhere, lo and behold, there's a light!

When morning came, the guards have deployed huskies to guard the place and whoever tries to escape the camp will be chased by them. However, I was able to sneak out and took a double deck bus with a couple of them, going past a place in Jurong where there were dogs and puppies leashed to a pole for sale. I was telling one of them, who look like Alan, a guy who is a regular to work at NATAS that they're really adorable and would like to take a couple of puppies home.

Feeling warm on my back and arms from the sunburn after that blazing riding at top deck of multistorey carpark yesterday.

The previous day had been really tiring as I knocked out soon after laying on bed, from returning after a drink and chat up with Yuzhen at her neighbourhood. She'll be starting night shift this Tuesday, so one less companion to chat with.

Back to work tomorrow, and things are more or less settled at home, except for the laundry which I'm going through now and to wash my car later. It has been quiet awhile since I got a full weekend off as most of the time, part of the Saturday will be spent on work which I kinda liked, to be able to work in the quietness of the office which meant minimal disturbances.

Another week of combat ahead but I'm quite content with things so far, and to brush aside those unnecessary mental troubles.

Saw myself at a block of HDB whih was newly built and part of the apartment's completed, and was talking to a foreman whom I told if it was ready for takeover; there was a lady who resembled Sharon; one of my colleagues who was holding on to some property-related books. Thereafter when we left, the building carried an eerie aura when glanced from far.

We entered another place, which was an 8-storey building resembling Bras Basah complex, but this time, the eerie aura was multiplied compared to the HDB block we previously visited. We went down from floor to floor, exploring each level, and I helped Sharon and Grace (another of my colleague) to carry some files, while flipping through the map. At 6th floor, the wind was unusually strong, building was dimly-lit and I told Grace to hold the map well less it get swept away by the wind.

Moving to another scenario where I was dressed as a Shinigami, and there were 3 companions who looked like the 3 created by Urahara, but being able to produce some sort of food. We were going through a mission and towards the end, we were in mid air and managed to find all 3 of them when they got lost halfway during the course of mission.

My aunt dropped by for my dad's birthday celebrations, where my mum prepared some food; this was a practise in my family; food preparations for any occasion.

Uncle bought a huge lot of durians which were top notch, and we ate quite a number of those. Soonafter, my uncle had to make a move; most probably due to work or could be for the meet-up with his friends. I managed to learn some skills from him, about picking good durians and thereafter, animating those durian hawkers which amused my family.

Managed to catch up with my aunt and shared about my work experiences and the few awards I got recently.

It's really heartwarming to see my dad so delighted in the photo he posed with a top-notch pried open durian.

Shared the rewards from NATAS with my parents and sister through Macs with $23 worth of coupons...it's certainly heart-warming to see them enjoying it; and my dad, who doesn't bear to spend on such food...being able to see the smile on their face certainly brings about a sense warmth to my heart.

It's nice to see the different nations coming into the stadium in Beijing via the live telecast of the 2008 Olympics opening; reminds me of my desire to travel all over the world to enjoy the beauty around the globe.

I have endured the 12 day work week. Managed to finish work pretty early today, so will follow up with a good rest tomorrow.

Rainy yet wonderful weather made the night an excellent time to retire for the night, after watching some flatland videos and catching up with Anton, to get ready for Training Day tomorrow.

The day went by pretty quickly that I hardly had time to gather my thoughts to pen down; it was a switch-mode day where I had to handle inbound and carry out my callback duty.

Managed to catch up with the new colleagues known at NATAS, and also with Mandy who has been mugging late into the night; so managed to catch up with her just before I left.

Focus on the more important things such as my work; getting important matters resolved, as well as all my efforts to make my online business work; need more time to really sit down to get the engine running.

Cough is better now, but still sporting a husky voice with a disrupted vocal channel.

Just a couple more days to endure to the end of the week.

Woke up after a 7 hour rest; feeling slightly better compared to yesterday except for a blocked nose.

Upcoming National Day, we will be celebrating my dad's 60th birthday.

Still have a little time to squeeze in some workout since I'm feeling much better in the muscular sector.

She has certainly changed a lot after her trip; something which I’m not comfortable with as she has seemed care-less about me despite all the care and concern for her.

Some people can call me a fool for that but I guess it has reached a limit. I have been observing the contribution ratio over these period and it shows the most come from my side. It’s not that I want to be calculative, but rather, received is not sufficient and satisfactory.

I hope she will reciprocate accordingly and be as lovable as before, after all these tough times we had gone through, instead of being so strong-headed and ignoring me. I certainly despise having such a partner.

As time goes by, it seems that I have to let loose things between us, as work slowly regulates with my recovered chakara.

Tomorrow will be Mid Battle Week, and resumption of the long hours at work, including my regular workout.

Head a little groggy but taking good hold of my emotions as I need to cope for another hour till the end of the day. The law of equivalent trade will always exist; if she wants to pursue her own “freedom”, then she will lose the most important thing in life.

Woke up feeling better after a cup of Chinese medication despite still having a stuck nose; all that's encumbering me. Need to avoid heaty and oily food.

I need to put my emotions aside as I continue to endure till the end of the week, which will also be a public holiday and a good rest for me, from the long, 12-day work week.

Finally managed to identify all of them in the photo taken during NATAS.

The day had been quite tough on my throat and nose due to the sore throat and flu, but had managed to get through it; dozed off while taking the bus back; at least I could sustain myself at my limit.

I'll continue to do my own things; should she really treasure me, she will come.

Feeling cold despite after taking some cooked food at an ultra late lunch…groggy in the head yet having a terrible voice while coping through the day.

I’ve managed to transfer the photos to my computer, but unable to find the colleagues’ names, whom I’ve taken pic during NATAs yesterday.

Back to work.

Awoken with a sore throat but still fit to go to work.

Will be taking a rest from workout and need to take lots of tonic to recover my throat as I need to use the voice for work.

it's going to be an endurance for the next 5 days but the evening was quite an enduring one, that I was unwell and stayed on till it all ends.

I saw myself in an old shophouse area where there is an apartment just above the coffeeshop, and met Zoe, who was Joel's girlfriend back then. I saw him with a few Caucasians frolicking in the house and asked what happened to him that has turned him to a womaniser and hurting Zoe, who left that apartment in a huff;

Somehow he still shows his trademark cheeky smile and I went after Zoe in the nearby carpark; soon after, I had awoken.

The battle had finally ended - 2 gruelling days on feet for more than 12 hours each day. I had been sneezing really badly in the evening, and starting to feel unwell; sustanance is by water and lots of Hacks to lubricate that throat to keep my voice going.

I had a good time chatting with Siwei, Cassandra, Sharon, and Grace from A&H dept, as well as Wan, who I only get to see during NATAS/kopitalk, over a period of 3 months' interval.

Wishing I could stay and walk to the MRT station with the rest of them, I had to go back earlier as I was feeling a little uncomfortable within, to catch up with more rest. Stayed online for awhile to read some flatland articles before going to rest.

Woke up with a jammed vocal channel but managed to cool and soothe it with some fruits and herbal jelly. Getting ready to go for the 2nd / last day of the big event.

Emotions aside, need to move out soon.

It was a busy and time zipping way as we worked through NATAS and getting quite a lot of sign ups. Once again, I saw my NS unit's officer and Chloe from Travel department; managed to catch up with Chloe occasionally before the peak hours. Got to know Grace from A&H who was a schoolmate of an ex-colleague, Marcus.

Lunch was nasi lemak; quite a big serving and Macs for dinner. I ate almost 3 packets worth of fries, and was fully loaded before I go back to do more sales.

I wasn't feeling tired on my feet, but rather, the fatigue on my throat which could be due to weather, extensive talking and lack of water supply; got to chat with Ben who was a rider in 1997 times where John, Ah Guan, Weixiong, James, just to name a few, were riding, but he has stopped already. Spent some time browsing flatlandfuel.com and getting ideas on setting up my new bike. Plopped unto bed at 12am but took sometime to hyperspace into dreamland.

Initially woke up at 5:15am and had a short dream that I woke at 9:06am, which was a real bad thing as I need to reach expo by 9:15am today for the 2-day work for NATAS. Lay back to bed and woke up again at7:15am...I had a real deep sleep from the previous day; lay on bed at 10:30pm after catching up with Chloe for awhile.

Time really flies as I've been working for 12 hours each day, for the past few week...that certainly requires a substantial amount of endurance while upkeeping on my workout schedule.

Reversal of funds had been successful as it turned out to be an invalid account I was transferring to...so now I can allocate my funds in "peace".

Time to get ready to refuel my bio-tank.

End of the work week before the long hours of the weekend. Just treated myself to stingray during lunch.Back to battle.

Just settled down from dinner after getting home. Had a short battle with some troublesome people but managed to talk it out with June and co...it's really fun to have their company at the after-office hours.

Once again, the 3 musketeers are the Last Men Standing; Kent, myself and Alex...they had been great company; Kent was always there to make a laughing session no matter how tense things go, and Alex would be the laughing audience with his smiley countenance. He had been nicknamed as "Vampire Master" just like Lim Cheng Eng who was the "celebrity Taoist master" for humor's sake. For myself, would be animating the situation.

The evening had been a peaceful one and certainly enjoyed the company of those who kept me company through the evening despite being late into the night.

A little drained so I won't be riding flat tonight; tomorrow's another MED.

Finally an hour’s lunch break in a long time. I was contacted by a financial consultant from Manulife about some savings plan, which I could consider after sometime. It brought up some memories of my late friend Alex Lim, who passed away on 13/05/07.

It’s already been a year since I last paid my last respect to him. Though we don’t talk much, but he’s really someone who knows his work and really does it well…

Had a short discussion with Melphis about going abroad for vacation, and mostly likely will be going alone to visit Eko, who has been staying there for many years. The thought of migrating over is still my ultimate goal, but I would like to see how the place / life is there.

Will be bogging myself down with work to keep my mind preoccupied, to avoid those unnecessary flittering thoughts, which could result in atomic effects when left growing.

Lunch had been a small group and yet heartwarming fellowship as I got to chat with Melphis and Markus.Will be back to work soon but will keep my thoughts here for awhile, while the "beautiful moments" of lunch break prevails.

One day break tomorrow from the overtime before the long standing hours of the weekend.

Just awoken after a deep sleep; especially tired from yesterday's workout and long working hours.

It was a dream like in some sort of bomb shelter and all the people were escaping this hideous, giagantic man-eating starfish and there were armoured renegade warriors armed to defend the civilians. Flash to another scene of in a shopping mall and saw a few of my ex schoolmates and a gir who turned over a new leaf; she's pretty but used to mix with bad company, so I was talking to her and showing her some of her studio shots and telling her "see, you can be so pretty" and she was smiling bashfully at me.

Strange but pleasantly surprising dream which I haven't had for a while, especially the part where I'm talking to this pretty girl, but can't match her face to a name though it rings a bell.

Just made some bitter booster to keep me going for the day; managed to wake up at 6am and complete the varied workout despite the short rest I had…somehow sleepy in the morning but could re-enter slumber, therefore commenced the workout.

1 min more to be back to work; just a recap of thoughts; phone has been especially quiet except for the occasional SMSes from friends and catching up with them.

Back to battle.

3 mins more to finishing my 2nd break. Had a short snoozer and flipped through some pages of ad for holiday packages; guess I really need one for some gettaway.

Back to the last battle of the day.

It was in the same place again, but on another side of the building. We were in a technical mob which all of us had to report back to camp and were all fully equipped and ready to move out for any operations.

There was an accident where someone got injured in camp premises and I saw Acid Boy, but was not sure who was the injured personnel; I was telling the guys that this is only a mob and such things happen...all of us were carrying our FBO and loitering around the 2nd level, outside what seems to be a classroom in the past, looking out at the parade square where the accident occured.d

Strapped to my back was also a long-barrel shotgun which was never seen anywhere in history.

Time compression breakJust had a time-compression lunch and made some coffee to keep me up during the ALS while I carry out on my work.

Getting ready to be back to work.

Woke up at 6:45am today to the knocking of the door from mum, which I've heard the alarm at 6:30am but wanted to snooze for awhile more.

It's going to be a long day ahead as I'll be leaving office after work, in the darkness again, since I'll be doing OT after the training.

Sometimes when I see elderly people taking buses in the morning, dress casually and looking fresh, does put an envy to my heart, but I know they have had their tough times, and it's time for them to enjoy their golden years. Now it's my turn to make my mark and work hard for my future, so being a little tired at times is alright. Most importantly, eating and resting well.

Getting ready to move out to the next battle day soon.

Started the day by going to the bank to sign documentations for funds reversal, and was advised that the process will take a week or so; at least I've taken the first step to notify the bank.

The day seemed to pass pretty quickly, but yet intensively as there were a few difficult matters at hand, but managed to get it through. Yuzhen's phone is pretty bad on the battery and so did not get to catch up with her via phone tonight.

It is the beginning of the Long March week where I will be working through the weekend till Friday next week. National Day will be a break for me; a 2nd full Saturday break for a long time.

Skimmed through 20incho.com for bike parts but so far nothing interests me. Jiawei still seem pretty active on the web and his riding, but seems that he won't be so actively doing videos anymore. Ahmaed has sold off his bike already which I've though of buying the complete bike from him.

Need to get as much rest I can this week, coupled with the more intense workout which I've tweaked recently.

Just went to Simei to have dinner; was intending to walk around but somehow just feel uncomfortable; guess it's still about the banking issue this afternoon, which I will be making a trip down to resolve it tomorrow.

Heavy-hearted because of this as well as the odd feeling of walking alone in Simei on a Sunday...but I guess I shouldn't think too much about it; life still goes on...said a little prayer to ease my worries as I was on the way home after dinner just now.

Guess it's time for me to rest since nothing much for the evening...will be having my workout tomorrow before I go to the bank to settle that matter.

A slip of proper checking....it caused some funds to be sent to the wrong account no!

I had been wanting to do some fund transfer via cash deposit machines, but it seemed so difficult when searching for one, so decided to do it online, which is much more convenient, and can be ported over within the next few days.

Thankfully, I've got Lenz who was really a good listening ear when talked it out to him, as well as some of my frustrations which had been suppressed within.

Will need to visit the bank tomorrow to sign some documents to set it via reversal mode.

Warming up my thoughts with a coffee after all the laundry and bathing of Jack who is enjoying himself in his clean home, yet ignoring me when I playfully poke his bum while calling him.

Doing some e-sorting of files in my computer while working out on bill payments...

Woot...check out the Asus Eee Nettop! it's a cool little device for minimal space and simple applications like web-surfing...might be getting this as a solution for my desktop replacement, considering the space-saving feature...

Almost time to get moving out for a quick washdown and errands.

Just gave Jack a warm bath and as usual, he's enjoying the scrubbing and soaking in warm water.

Sunday's my usual cleanup day, where I'll give my room and laundry a thorough run through to make the place more comfortable and prepare myself for the week. Next will be my ride's turn to get a wash; shall spare the waxing for this week as it would deem pretty redundant to do it every week.

I dreamt that I was in some dilapilated make-shift barracks which looks more like a training ground, and previously an abandoned building of an old school.

There was a part where we came out on the field and saw a group of ninjas training, and then saw the label "Ninja Training School" which was shown on the front building, as we were on a hill which was almost at the height of the building. After training for awhile, the trainer, who looked like Yongyi from my secondary school, told me that we need reinforcements for the main unit to train us as the support group is lacking in manpower.

A scene shows us at some shophouses doing some missions, carrying the traditional kunai and shuriken, and being able to leap at storey-height from places to places.

Fast forward to a place where we yielded full battle order and were given live rounds. I was carrying a shot gun and managed to shoot down a few live targets, including a live vulture, which landed within our premises. I tried reloading the gun by turning like Schwarzenegger but could not do so, and the empty catridge jumped out without having to account for it. Shotguns are cool.

Somehow, this unit I am in is like a cross between modern warfare with ancient ninjitsu.

Ready to move off to work; today's workout was of a different beat with a change of usage of weights; the fixed weights are becoming less effective as my strength increases through the previous months of training.


It'll be a half-battle today, afterwhich I can go out to do some shopping to reward myself for all the hard work...a little tired as I spent the night editing and watching flatland videos, thinking if I should pick up my bike again after so long of non-practise due to hours at work; afterall it's a good alternative of not spending money unnecessarily and I will benefit from the skills and experience when riding; one of a good way to occupy myself after all the hardwork and spare my eyes from the fatigue of looking at the PC all day at work.

Time to make a move?

Woke up at 5 to the rhythm of Shinobi 3 and started a varied workout to spice things out from the usual routine type; the dumbbells have turned too light and it's time to get a set of interchangeables.

I had a dream about an accident involving a NSF driver and it came to mind that I spoke to Lee Kok Seng and he told me about how good he was as a driver, and somehow, it crossed relation with MSG Lee's late son who was also KIA as a rider.

Her cellphone was off when I tried calling the first time during my break time, and there after, no answer despite several rings. I have a strong feeling that she’s still around but under an avoiding mode.

I need to keep hold my emotions well and not let it go berserk, since I have been unable to reach her for the last 2 days with that message she’s going away. The wall of trust has been crumbled since she went abroad for so long and I have done my part of apology on that message which was to meant for a friend.

with all those "socially-powerful" and going up to the top?

It was a tiring night as I reached home pretty late; completed my workout and got to know a new friend on Skype who is also in the finance sector. We chatted till around 11 when I needed to rest; but stayed online for awhile looking through sports car; was thinking of changing my ride, but for now, will see how things go first.

Will be on a high power mode these 2 weeks as I will be doing lots of OT, so much lesser time will be spent at home...in the meantime, will log my thoughts and events here since will not be going anywhere else after work.

Feeling a little calmer yet patience resistance from work issues but still coping fine; somehow, it feels like my Dark Chakara brimmed after that news about Pink leaving all of sudden.

The pantry was a little populated so I decided to deskmount and write my out my thoughts here, to ease the tension / pressure building on a cumulative basis within.

Just took a quick skim through the papers; time to set back to work

Just settled down, post dinner, after the Inter-Department Bowling Competition at Marina Bowl...it was a pretty tough fight and I took up Esther's place after the first round; certainly was stressed up and was not at my peak compared to the previous practises we had.

Sal was the champ of the night; clearing the pins with Strike or the most the 2nd attempt without much problems. Initially, I took up the role of photographer before I played and managed to get us in action. It was one of those times I saw Clein in her real self; ie the not serious side of her. The news from Daniel is that we did not get into the top 3; no worries as we played our best, but today was one day I was certainly not myself due to anxiety.

Overall, we really had fun, screaming the cheers and finally left at 9:15pm, where we took a chartered bus back to Eunos MRT station and I took 67 back home.

It certainly felt like something so important lost from my life.A certain sector not fully awaken and was in some sort of slumber; a type of drugged state that I could not feel the world around me.

I remember there was a night I was up in the middle of the night to visit the latrine, and when I was leaving the kitchen area after exiting latrine, I heard a sound of the wooden chair being nudged and that wood-against tile dragging sound, but there was no one there.

My dad was sleeping like a log and I stared into the darkness of the non-lit kitchen and saw nothing; half my mind was thinking that I might see something extraordinary...

Nothing.

At this point of time, I could feel a stingy feeling as my hair stood on ends, and went back to sleep without thinking much. I wondering if it could be due to the spiritual return of my grandma I remember how she will nudge the chair when she was not able to walk quickly due to the rheumatism in her legs before she passed on 7 years ago.

Another thing to take note at work but have received a precaution that I may not be able to do emails in future if similar mistakes are done; that sentence triggered some memories from my previous workplace but it certainly has a certain effect, as I want very much to prove my competency.Time for some engine braking to look through things carefully, and learn to take things easier in a way. My main worry is that such things will affect my chances of perm conversion, which appraisal will be in the next 4 months upon completion of my contract.

I was reading some paranormal stuff on the Web and sometimes wonder why do people cross lines with the paranormal? Is it because there is something that they need from us, or we need to do something in return for certain form of blessings?

From Rynn's updates, it seems that the paranormal has turned worst especially when Junwei isn't around; though it's not a Taoist priest by nature, he certainly knows such matter in a certain depth as compared to many of us. For my stance is to respect all that's around; be in natural / supernatural, and not to play any silly tricks. Of course, the most important thing is our faith in our own belief.

The air of the night had been still as I recall the encounters Benjamin has shared with me, of which, some I've related to Rynn and company during our stay at the chalet / BBQ last night.

One of which I've not shared is about a duo tall and short ghosts which his friends saw at MacRitchie reservoir in the night, where one of his friends taunted "it" and soon, he was possessed and "it" spoke, telling them this was to teach him a lesson for disturbing them, and in order for them to leave him in peace, they had to put up offerings. Once agreed, they did without trying any tricks...sure enough, it never touched him again.

A little rainy afternoon as I went to pick Pink and Little B up from Shop N Save where she forgot to bring her purse along for groceries...it was certainly heartwarming to see her today as she shared with me her experiences at the foot reflexology centre.

Arose from slumber soon after hearing my phone ring to the usual techno beat, while preparing my water bottle to carry along when driving.

Back home now, skimming throught the Web for used WRX for sale; that steadily heavy rumble seem to spur me to get a ride of that sort and have received a message from one of my ride's forum member about trading in leads; that could wait awhile though it'll be real cool to own one powerful ride of that sort; I'll be the first person in my family to own a turbo-ed ride, so to speak.

The previous night had been wonderful as I was able to see everyone after so long; Eric is very much the same, so as Junwei, Rynn and Sharrifah, and Siti joined us later.

I spent quite some time chatting with Eric about these young girls and their mindset, and also talked about middle-age / medevial movies with Markus who is a great fan of the sort. Junwei was as usual, the master of preparing the pits and a few of his friends also came over to stay. Cheng is still very much the same with his "caucasian" look.

Wanna is still very cheerful as usual and learnt that she's handling the lines for NDP which will be available till 16/08 where a few active NSFs will be helping her; it sure sounds fun; having to manage a small group of people to handle this extended service.

I learnt that the paranormal encounter is getting from bad to worst from Rynn, which has even occured in the day time and strangely, only to the ladies...this was conversed during the wee hours of the morning; 4 - 5am, and while staying to chat with them, I decided to put up for the night as it was too unsafe as I detected a drop in my concentration level due to fatigue.

I took my leave in the morning after chatting a little with Junwei and Eric; had a 3 hour recuperation soon after I got home; thankfully the journey was safe as I could feel some fatigue and lack of proper focus while making my way home.

The fresh scent of soil came with a rushing sound; a peek outside shows that rain has started. That might be a good idea afterall since it has been so warm in the earlier part of the day; this will make the evening a cooling time and higher probability that it will not rain tonight during our BBQ session in Costa Sands.

Good time for a wipeoff on my ride later as the weather had been a little hydrating and leaving watermarks on the surface but I could do a break from waxing tomorrow as the main objective now is to rid the watermarks and achieve a showroom shine...it's a good chance for me to write my thoughts out in the dark-sky yet comfortable afternoon, finally, after a time of good sleep recovery.

Thinking of going out for a spin before meeting the bunch.

It had been quite a challenging and yet victorious week as I got to do some new things at work that spiced up apart from the usual routine things; while gaining experience in a different direction.

Generator Power Low indicator detected as my self-cooked lunch had been depleted...it was great to make my own lunch where I can choose what I want with my own variety.

Weather looks abit dark; let's pray that it will not hinder our roasting time of fun and laughter tonight at Costa Sand Resort.

Whiffed back from a 3-hour OT and saw Lawrence; he's so much tanner from ICT as he should have finished yesterday; chatted a little and he left earlier after finishing his work.

Got a 45min "free" parking at my workplace but still managed to finish my work; hyuk hyuk...

It's a hot, yet drive was comfortable as I was not blazed by the sun under the cool air in my ride but to do a little clean up of my interior as I accidentally tipped the packet of full cream milk while sipping and driving; guess that's the problem of a MT car but I still like the ability to put the driving style in full control.

A little snoozer before the BBQ later.

The first ray of light came at 7:30am where I lay till 8am, and disabled the slumber mode to get ready to go back to do overtime.

There was a scene about me staying in a big house of the landed property zone where things seem so easy and comfortable for me, with a Nissan Silvia parked outside my home...it was so wonderful; the ultimate kind of place I want to stay in, with gentle wind blowing in the frontyard and a self-built waterfall under the gentle ray of sunlight. Many thoughts ran through my mind as I awoken just now butI can't dwell in it too much; using right action makes it possible to get what I want in life!

A break from the usual overtime I stay for as I went back home before darkness; something which I haven't had in a while; was planning to stay for overtime but will carry on with that tomorrow.

Looking forward to the fellowship tomorrow at Pasir Ris!!

A quick yet powerful workout wrapped my day just before having a light dinner and resuming to catch up on the episodes of Bleach which I have been missing for the past few months since I started working here. The week had been pretty victorious and managed to have time to chat with my colleagues, but just have to be careful on a few things at work; like how Tay told Eric that she will give him a massage in line with the massage session given organised by the SPICE team.

Had been a little occupied on my mind with work and how I can manage my time better; still moving towards the ability to drive to work everyday without having to worry about getting parking fines, rush and not forgetting, the progression of experience points from more work.

I must have been really tired; continued to sleep even after the alarm rang at 6:30am thought today is the scheduled MED...guess I'll have to reslot the workout to be after work tonight.

Ready to go off now.

On a proposed plan to do OT after the monthly meeting but Esther told us to go back as she doesn't want us to stay so late; so managed to clear my work and went to chat with Brigitte while looking at all the fish tanks around their area.

I walked to the bus stop area with Brigitte and learnt that she's driving today; initially didn't want to hitch a ride from her so as not to inconvenient her, but still accepted out of her good will...she's certainly very kind. We chatted as she drove through PIE and only then I found out she's driving a Hafei Minz, which looks like a minature version of minibus and yet it is quite comfortable...could consider getting one when I'll be out with a group of friends / family members.

Half my mind was thinking of getting a S13 for leisure purpose and using my current ride for general purpose ie going to work and back but that may not be feasible...saving up is a good habit so as to be able to accumulate wealth and overall, still a better practise.

Deep slumber in the comfortably chilly Bus 67 when I was on the way to work today; managed do to 2 sets of near completed workout, ate and got ready to come to work.Quite pretty worn out from yesterday’s work as I stayed till quite late to do my work.The snooze on the bus was a good one as I had a short recovery from the muscle expansion session in the morning.

Managed get my workout done before I get to my workplace and while on the bus, had a good snooze and woke up in time to alight; Robert saw me and told me that he could not catch up with me due to my walking speed while we met in the Gents while styling my hair.

It's the midpoint of the week; work is still manageable except for some crucial moments where finger / hand movement needs to be hastened.

Left work and went home, a little tired but mind still broadcasting the chakara to keep the thoughts running while on the way home.

Quite a tense moment at work from the variety of patience-challenging followups which I needed to gather my emotional chakara to combat those moments but still managed to go through the day.

The journey on the bus was a quiet, little rumbly and yet pleasant, as I was able to get a temporal rest of my mind while I went through the events of the days; the email about promotions for some colleagues, the question Norizan asked about my blog, which will always remain as mysterious as the Matrix...the list goes on. The journey home was like a ride on a creaky tugboat after a fearsome battle of Midway while returning to our barracks, all tired, dirty and wet; with a reverse condition in this case; aircon, clean but still tired mentally.

Time spent at home is much shortened since the day I work at AIG; as the time goes by, gaining experience and skillset. I know this will not be permanent so I'll endure while continuing to gain more knowledge, skills and experience as each day of battle goes by.

A twist to the evening; managed to catch up with Gowrie and Aisha via MSN and sms respectively and it's great to know that Gowrie's getting married soon and Aisha is doing fine; the last time I heard she was promoted to ATL along with a few; I still remember those moments when I first lunch with them and gettintg to know them better as the days go by while we worked, battling the shift hours of irregularity and the final Night Battle which reversed our resting capability for quite sometime.

It's a short, yet wonderful chat I had with Gowrie and hearing her talk out her emotional discomfort...always feel happy to see my friends around me feeling better after confiding in me and being able to lend a listening ear to them.

Flagplug to mark the end of Black Tuesday.

Been having funny dreams lately and all those places seem so familiar.

Muscle recovery was properly done as I slept till 7am though proposed alarm was at 6:30am..getting ready to go to work soon but will let my ride rest today so as to avoid unnecessary troubles like the fine which I received that was an occurrence sometime back.

It'll be a longer day as I'll most likely be doing overtime tonight.

I managed to get the refund done quickly at Carefour and walked around a little to browse, but remembering I had been soaking up in the car accessories section for 2 hours or so till they close, I decided to make my way back home to rest as it's getting late and the time spent at home has been greatly reduced...

Slapped with a fine for parking at Tembeling Road which is about 5mins walk to my workplace...time to Shinobi away and avoid that area...it does hurt my pocket but I guess the better side of things will be to learn about it and not repeat this mistake.

Been pretty busy making my ride as nice and comfy as possible lately. Busy-ness of work kicked in pretty quickly but still within capacity to juggle all the tasks. I remember Andrew who was really cool-headed when talking to difficult people on the phone; a trait certainly worth adopting to make work a little more easier on the mind in this speciality.

Been waiting for her reply but so far haven't heard from her as she thought I wasn't true in my fact about driving; had done my explanation but hope to hear from her soon...

The gentle drizzle of the night brings about a calling to rest, build and reconstruct new muscle tissues from the full-fledged workout today.

Fatigue encumbered me when I woke up to the alarm for my proposed workout at 5am but re-entered slumberland when laying on bed for awhile to regain consciousness. Woke up again at 6:30am and force-start my workout session, managing to complete it and brought half a loaf of remaining raisin bread to work. Mentally still abit bushed from the heavy load workout overpowering the slumber in a semi-control mode of my mind.

Just had a sip of coffee and that greatest mind is powering up; senses activated and inbuilt speed enhancer mode selected.Activities after work today will be dropping by Carefour to exchange / refund the wrong colour Turtlewax.

Finally managed to settle down after a 5 hour long wash / wax deco up of my ride...realised I bought the wrong shade of the colour fix which was supposed to enhance gleam and fix those minor chip marks.

The day had been really warm as I went to pick Pink up to spend some time together but the weather had made both of our mood a little disrupted; things are better after a short rest and went to pick Little B up and wento Giant for some grocery shopping, before I sent them back while I spent 5 hour at one go in the nearby carpark to touch up my car.

Maybe it was due to the many months that I had not been taking proper care of my ride, so now it's a return of "feelings" for proper care and tidying; bit by bit, I will restore it back to what it was 3 years ago and start fixing up some accessories to personalise it.

Wish I can have Pink's company tonight; the day seemed to whiff by when I was spending time washing and touching up my ride.

Phew, just cleared my overtime; managed to finish 28 emails within a span of 2 hours; but need to take note of some incorrect information.

The morning whiffed by pretty quickly as I was able to complete the work without much problems, except for a few which need some turnaround time.

Quite a chilly place now that Lawrence and Hazel had left after they have done their work but it's my turn to leave soon...sometimes wish I can put up at a place nearby so I can shorten the travelling time even further. Energy level is somewhat back after a "10 hour deep rest" last night; wish I had more energy to keep going through the night via the web on how to doll up my ride.

Quite a dashy move when exiting workplace from 1/2 day leave which I have applied quite a few months ago; even slipped my mind after filing the approval slip, and gave Eric a fright when I asked him on the confirmation of approval.

Was planning to go for a good sunbath at the beach but the weather suggested the opposite, so stayed at home to read ups and catch up with some friends via MSN...also managed to complete Shadowdance, which I never got a chance to play on Megadrive during the Sega era.

Quite an energy depleting day as I drove around in my ride to do some window shopping and picked Pink at Eastpoint where we spent some time before sending her home.

Phew. Managed to pull of a full set of workout today though I felt so sleepy; broke of the "soul sleep" mode and proceeded on a workout frenzy and managed to complete everything, coupled with a thorough shower and changed to get ready to move off.

I had a dream about talking to Kevin and Hoe Yong at a place, which looks like a shopping mall, which is near the Singapore River; somehow, this place looks pretty different; with very soft lightings and soothing ambience; just like the feeling of the Lavender shower gel from Palmolive...

Short collection of morning's happenings.

Finally ported over 90% of my blog. This will be the new home where all my thoughts / events will be stored.

Went to see doctor for a follow up today as I still had discomfort in my stomach due the previous diagnosis of bleeding rectum...so my incentive will be wind down for this month. Eric was telling me to do my best yesterday to get the full incentive but guess I can only recover it next month...small ailments dont' occur to me except for such complications, which occur occasionally. But I mustn't be complacent too; looking at Luqman's health is also a concern and tells us how precious life can be especially when there's a setback on our health condition.

Back to work tomorrow but had quite a deep rest just now; need to get adequate rest as I have been working long hours recently; doctor said the boiling factor is to look at my diet and take lots of fruits and vegetables...I'll need to do that on a consistent basis.

Rest for battle tomorrow. Make up MED!

Awoken by the sound of Westminister clock chime on my phone, I woke up to disable to alarm, planning to go for a run before work but went back to lay on bed.

There was a dream back to Tanjung Gul camp where we had our 1^st ICT, and saw my comrades, then the outprocessing at the container-converted in / out pro centre; I also saw the Brigade S3 whom I don’t know why he was joining us al ong the queue.

When I awaken, it was already 7:10am and I had missed my proposed morning run, therefore, went on to prepare myself to make my way to work.

I took a bus and fell into deep slumber when I was on the bus and soon, I had arrived at my workplace; it must’ve quite a battling day yesterday for me but I managed to live it well.

Just received an SMS from Liting about what I wrote...it certainly brings about a kind of warmth, gentle breeze in my heart, a very delicate moment which occured almost 10 years ago which I remember crystal-clearly. As what I've told her, I guess I'm too gentleman at that brittle moment, but that simple gesture of whisking her fringe gently off her face certainly wasn't something ordinary without any significance.

I chatted with her over the phone yesterday and we talked about that time when she did not have access to the computer and came over to my place to use my PC to do her project; I wasn't accomodating because I had feelings for her, but she certainly needed help at that time...since I could help, I thought, "why not?"

Meeting up will never be as convenient as before considering she already has a family; probably hearing each other's voice over the phone most of the time might be the best thing we can do to keep in touch after re-connecting through these 10 years.

Coming back to think of it, I remember one of my juniors, Yusheng, who happened to be in the same class as Liting, teased me jokingly when he saw Liting chatting with another guy student whom I don't know, asking if I felt something sour in my heart. Seriously I didn't, but she certainly was a really sweet girl (now still).

Sometimes, I wonder what she does to take care of her complexion which seemed flawless whenever I see her and chat with her, with an occasional glance over her countenance.

Liting's a really chatty person by nature so whenever we chat, most of the time I'll be listening to her talk and she can just go on endlessly, like our time is put to a standstill. No doubt it's only a conversation, it tells me alot about herself and how brittle she can be emotionally; from what she tells me about her past relationships / troubles, I could see that she's a very committed lover and will give all out to her partner.

Am I able to deliver as such? Sometimes I ask myself but not even myself can give that answer.

At this point, it's just like a quick and light breeze sweeping me back to those days where I carried a really light bag, packed with just a handful of books / writing materials weighing less than 1kg, to and from Bishan. Even PE lessons were so much tougher and sticter (yet fun) compared to school days.

Introduction to my Secretarial Days.

Certainly, sitting in front of Tay, I have a real good laugh many times when she spew certain remarks over things, which even Eric and Hazel will break into laughter from her humor. Oh well, with her around, somehow, days are more fun to go by and it's pretty true about the type of company we have that keeps the bond strong.

Quite a long day as I finished work only 8:30pm; stayed behind to chat with Norizan and Brigitte while admiring their fish tanks, and soon, Alex was ready to go off, and managed to have more company while we walk back to the MRT station / bus stops. We certainly had a good fellowship time while chatting during the walk, as the working hours does not permit us to have time for a real fellowship.

Quite a heavy load today but I managed to clear the backlog and emails well before schedule, except for some referral cases.

Many have left the office pretty early but I'm pretty used to staying late to work, without having to worry about the time crisises during actual operating hours...staying late at work has one good thing and that is to withhold myself from time to laze / slack but making time productively used.

I've not seen Pink for 3 days...kind of miss her but I know that all these hard work will bear fruit in time to come.

work still goes on as tomorrow will be Midway Battle; checkpoint for the middle of battleweek.

Lightened version of ALC so I upkeep my energy level after the quick, water lunch. Too much curry gravy making the mixed rice taste like mixed porridge.

I’ve been successful in doing 2/3 of my workout this morning despite waking up at 7am; not to be too greedy to complete the entire set of workout and have the trouble of being late and losing out on my incentive.

Another couple of hours before the battle of the day ends.

Managed to get complete my workout though I've worked a little late today. Lots of mind boggling issues at work but nothing I can't handle so far from all the knowledge accumulated over the past 8 months. We had a casual chat among our team this morning and Eric realised that it has been 8 months since I'm working here...time really flies! Soon it'll be a year.

Life is back to normal after that 5 days of "military vacation" which lots of memories were carried along.

I realised that my memory capacity has also improved over the days while I work here, as this requires me to remember alot of things, which can help cut down unnecessary work when I adopt the useful tips which we learnt during the offsite training several months back. While gathering information, relax and slowly input those gathered information into the system and things will be smooth sailing from there.

Had a 45min break today which was scheduled at a non-peak hour so I can enjoy the quietness of the pantry while I lunch-in. Mixed rice tasted like porridge as there was too much gravy...but well, they managed to upkeep my Bio-Turbocharged engine till dinnertime and only started feeling hungry around 8pm when I needed to work my mind hard on some matters.

Anyhow, the day managed to go by pretty well as the most gladful thing I had was to be able to resume my workout regime on a segmented system. Today's workout will be just warming up before the full swing comes live on Wednesday.

Managed to have a good chat with Liting while washing my car as she gets ready to go for a friend's wedding dinner with her family. We have so much to discuss; but maybe meeting up with her won't be so convenient already since she's already married.

Come to think of it, we've been friends for 10 years, though on the "on-and-off" contact frequency, but I'm glad she has settled down with someone who cares for her.

My car sure had a thorough washup except for those kinks which needs to be fixed up to bring back it's flawless beauty; Vitamin M; lots of it needed. I dozed off when I reached home after all those hard work...and yes, back to work tomorrow and somewhat had this intertia going on in my mind and all over me; wished the weekend was longer.

Weekends will be shorter once again, since I'm back with the high frequency of overtime. But I must get back to my weights training regime tomorrow.

I had quite a tense conversation with Pink via Yahoo Messenger, and didn't get to meet up as I was tired from the touchup of my car...somehow, I just felt like the weekend slipped by pretty quickly...but I must not be complacent on my work so as to get the additional "free" money at the end of the month.

Time to rest...return to battle tomorrow.

A warming surprise took me when I read messages in my Friendster account...It's Liting, a long lost friend!

She has been away to US with her husband for a couple of years and is now back to Singapore...it's so wonderful to see her photos of their family together; she has a daughter who's so adorable.

Memory stop: I remember she told me about the troubles in the relationships she had been and even before she got married, there were some crisis which she was going through with her then-boyfriend, now hubby. It dawned on me that such a sweet girl like her will definitely need someone to care for her...I was riding back then and dropped by to see her mum and gently whiffed her fringe away from her face before I made my way home, on that sunny and heart-warming day.

I still recall how she told me "...don't be too nice to me. I'm afraid I'll fall for you..." those words remain in my heart and brings about a kind of special feeling. I don't know what that feeling should be described as...but it's like a fragment of lost memory retrieved from the many years it has been archived in my library of all memories.

Hearing the forcing alarm at 5am but my phone was not beside my bed, I continued to sleep as I spent the previous night sorting out some things in my online shop. Added a couple of new items for sale.

Quite some chores to do today; give car a thorough washup, tidy up my room and get some proper time to continue running my autopilot business. Gotta watch that cashflow to enquire that I do not blow my wallet with all the things I saw at Sim Lim that I desire so much.

Tomorrow will be back to battle; continue to upkeep all the early arrival and do my work properly, charge up all the overtimes to get a fatter paycheck at the end of the month.

A cup of coffee accompanies me in the warming up night to the music of Shinobi, an old time favourite game when the console was the "in" thing for us young boys during my childhood.

Been driving for long distances for almost the whole day and dropped by Giant, hoping to grab my dinner, but the food court was more packed than I expected. After running through the car care section, it's high time I started doing something good for my car.

First of all, will be making it smell good with a thorough cleanup of the interior before a thorough bath / washup and complete with a good waxing session; the last thing will be go for a good servicing and get the physical kinks fixed up at one good goal. It sure feels very different to drive in a flawless vehicle; I want to bring back that good feeling of driving in a perfect condition car again. Of course, all these needs pumping in of funds which I need to work hard for.

Time flies as I recall about my day; it's already 1/2 past 12am; hope Pink slept well.

An exceptionally short day which I spent the morning hours rushing through the emails due to time constraint of our system downtime for maintenance...I was the only person when I arrived, and June came in later, so I had company for a couple of hours with some casual chat till the system was down.

wow...LCDs are getting more exquisite in design and bigger, while pricing are competitively lowered from a few big players; saw the mini PC and thought of investing in one which I can carry around, without having to lug an almost 2kg lappy around, whenever I need to access the net, or just write some short thoughts. Brisked through most of the shops without much idea of how and when I should start rebuilding my PCs or should I get someone to revive my current down-PCs which has become an IT-decorative junk if I do not put it to good use.

All these ended around 7 when I spent the evening waddling in thoughts which causes irregularity in my mental chakara, before retiring for the night.

Pretty drained day.

ALS is awakening. Coffee has been prepared to curb those moment where I need full attention, considering that my work requires me to be on the bum all day; minimal movement causes a 360 degree horizontal development…this week has been well-battled so far and I’ve certainly missed a lot of my workout;. Recovery has not been done from the callup which was pretty intensive last week.

I made it this week; able to reach office in time and not have my incentive penalised for this week. So far, it’s a perfect week. A little drifty thoughts but back to battle now.

Just a quick post before I leave for one last full battle day of the week; a little short addiction to relive the good old Sega days like Shadowdancer, Thunderforce III and the sort. Laid on bed around 1:30am after a quick hot bath and before I knew it, I was already in dreamland.

Woke up at 7:18am but lay on bed till 7:28am - another workout day missed; guess I need to relax a little too, despite being zealous about my workout schedule.

Ready to go!

woops...low battery...have been snapping too many photos of myself while finding the best angle. Phone has been left to re-juice up, just before I retire for the night.

Photography has been one of my favourite past time as well as being photgraphed...that triggers me to my desire to path of glamour - still quite cynical about that silly idea of upfront paying $1k without any assignments yet and the location is so way remote.

Just a couple of fleeting thoughts before the restoration of MED tomorrow.

I went back to rest despiting my alarm clock ringing at 5am to do my make up workout today; I was simply too tired; and lay in bed till 7:15 where I got ready to fuel up for the day and then took a cab to work; driving somehow had became quite a headaching activity in consideration of the parking availability at my workplace.

Smooth arrival these few days and we had a group photoshoot for the upcoming CCAS. Quite a mentally battling day but it had been quite manageable as I get to handle a quite complicated case, and liasing with a foreign office in Thailand on some issues; something with a twist.

My hairdo was pretty noticable when I boarded the bus home and tried resting, but my mind was battling with time management; as to how I can win back all those lost days of workout? Simply feeling all uncomfortable without the usual doze of a hard pump in the muscles.

I made it this week; able to reach office in time and not have my incentive penalised for this week. So far, it’s a perfect week.A little drifty thoughts but back to battle now.

A strong feeling of the ALS has commenced; am cutting down on my intake of caffiene to prevent staining of my teeth.

I was just teased by Lengleng and Joyceline about my hair when they are about to go for lunch while waiting for Eric…it sure makes me prominent with my trademark "Dragonball" hair, that everyone has been calling me that.

Back to work soon, just to slip in a few notes here to update on happenings around / within my mind.

Coming towards the end of the day and will be resuming my overtime charge today, but I have to make sure that I will need to finish up my workout by today as a jumpstart to my regular workout routine, not forgetting to incorporate some frequent running into the non-workout days.

Phew, quite a mentally battling day so far.

Failure to do my workout though I have been awoken by the alarm clock as I slept late last night; somehow a lingering feeling to stay awake as the night seemed short despite returning home early. Feeling a little uncomfortable as I have not had my doze of exercise for a week or so.

A good loading of breakfast was done today so I should be sustainable till lunchtime. Getting ready to move off for yet another battle ahead.

It did not occur to me that I've been blogging here for over a period of a year, with interruptions in between due to period masses of seaonal peaks. Everything's somewhat normal as I had been spending pretty short hours in the past at home due to long hours of work. They're certainly worth it as I've been clocking pretty high hours of additional work.

It's a new month, so I need to put in a consistent effort to reach office earlier so as to be able to qualify for the additional incentive. Have been receiving vouchers lately for certain achievements and some giveouts by the company.

What does it take for me to remain consistent and being able to sustain well in a mentally stressful work like this? To many, this job may look easy considering an indoor environment, but it also takes a certain set of skill to be able to cope well. This continues to strengthen through experience with constant improvement.

The weather has turned a little cooler so I can soon retire for the day as I will be resuming my muscle expansion day tomorrow; this time I need to add in more programs to keep myself sportily occupied.

The night was extremely thermal and before I realised it, I've already entered slumberland.

Awoken by the e-Big Ben at 6:30am, I lay in bed till 7am and started to get myself ready. Soon, I was back to the usual battlefield at last Quite a manageable day as I worked through the day without much trouble.

It's good to be back here though some reluctance from the fellowship during ICT still lingered on; managed to catch up with Weiqiang as he shared with me more about his family and his social life; wanting to find that special girl so much, so I introduced him a couple of websites and taught him a few moves.

Eric commented that I look pale, and the same remark was also passed by a few other colleagues at work; certainly the discomfort and lack of rest from in-camp had somewhat taken an exterior effect. I won't be seeing Melphis for a week as he has gone abroad for a short vacation and Sherryl has moved over to the sales team while June came back to join us.

Better get some rest tonight; but my mind had not gone in peace as Pink had not replied me all day after I sent her a message in the morning; hope she's feeling better compared to yesterday when there were symptoms of flu and extreme fatigue.

Another heaty night hit the roof as I attempt desperately to cool myself down with lots of water, and the fan directed at me. Perspiration still oozing out of my pores and turning me into a shiny homo sapiens in a couple of minutes.

Will be back to work tomorrow but I hope that I will recover from this discomfort soon as every big business loo visit is quite a terrible one from the pain; doc had given me some medication which will last for a week or so.

My car matters are settled but took out a substantial portion of my funds, which I will need to work harder for greater gains so I may set aside a certain sum for rainy days.

There were some abnormalities which I need to monitor over the next few days upon taking of medication diligently.

Hope all's okay as the days go by, without causing me too much trouble.

I admitted that the message was for a friend which had made her upset in the past; we've been together for so long and I can't bear to leave her no matter what; I will continue to put in my best for our future to stay together, for good and eternity.

I wanted so much to text her when I was outfield too, but apparently, the location had been pretty remote, causing my network to switch to the neighbouring country's service provider; even had trouble making and receiving important calls.

The journal of my training will be updated. Keep reading...

An extremely short weekend which I spent most of my time catching up on sleep lost from the ICT which officially ended yesterday.

I made a trip to Singapore Expo for the John Little sale but there wasn't anything that attracted me after walking the entire hall where the sale was on, so I went to Simei to take a walk too, but settled my dinner at Tampines Mart...

Back to the battle tomorrow now that I have fulfilled my 3rd callup.

The turbo engine still runs strong even after a one-week pause from my usual workout as I had fully digested my dinner by 8pm; so refuelling from the home-cooked noodles, warmed up from the rice cooker's steam.

How will tomorrow be now that I'm back? The feeling of the brotherhood still lives on in my heart...it was tough, and certainly really a wonderful fellowship that no money can buy.

Once again, the heat of the night coated the entire room and causing an outburst of perspiration. Anyhow, it's a good thingi as the body will rid of any toxic; just that the discomfort of sticky skin makes it a little uncormfortable.

I can't find my eye-training glasses which helps to relax my eyes while focusing my vision on the computer...well, continue the search later.

The day I had been waiting for came at last. The past 4 days had not been easy for us and today is our out-process.

A program was held at SAFRA Yishun where we were released from at the end of our 3rd ICT. Somehow, when the bond is building up between comrades, the fellowship needs to be seperated once again for another period. Till now, I'm still re-configuring my thoughts to go back to the usual life now that I'm home.

We certainly had much fun bowling and casually chatting up now that we have gone through the entire process of the short, yet intensive period.

The airflow in my room is certainly much poorer compared to camp but I guess I have to put those military thoughts back where it should be and refocus on my work and regular life once more. As I was driving home from SAFRA Yishun, slumber started disturbing my alertness but I did not allow myself to relax which will endanger myself on the road, so popped in quite a quantity of fried mermaid with a cup of coffee.

A couple of hours were spent playing my favourite, quick-action game, Gunz, as I had been re-organising my thoughts while training up my reflexes while fingers clicked quickly moving through the Spacebar and ASDW keys with haste.

My thoughts are almost re-organised as I type my thoughts for the day here. I definitely will miss my comrades who will just like me; back to normal life after the 5 days of training in camp. Certainly hope for the best for all of them.

The in-pro this time seemed more efficient compared to the last time; probably due to earlier arrival at camp.

Just ended the day awhile ago after all the weapon handling and tests. It's good to see everyone again; Haizul has lost so much weight and Soh had a new addition of tattoo on his left wrist.

The morning sure dragged some reluctance due to pre-ICT blues, as I'll not be able to have that freedom. But to put it in a positive way it's a good opportunity to fellowship with my comrades once again.

I'll be collecting the contact list again so as too keep the fellowship strong, even after our ICT, as my Dopod went dead on me as I was keeping all contacts there.

Almost dinner time. I've already got a picture of the program ahead of us for the next four days till we get out on Friday. This ICT is somehow a good time for me to be away from the world while I serve my duty and to make good use of the time together, plan / strategise actions before the next move, for my online marketing campaign.