A short nap turned out to be an entire night's slumber when I lay on bed at 9ish last night.  It was unexpected; while trotting my way to my usual bus stop to get home last night, the late hours are making me a little uncomfortable.  Overall still a great learning path for me, but if the hours creep late, it becomes disturbing.

Again, it's a reminder of when will I break out of this lifestyle to do what I really am happy about doing?  No matter how much I suppress it, there will always be intervals of when I will 'surface' to have a look at the goal, as if one is in a swimming competition.

It's for the sake of livelihood that I stay on in mainstream so I have to keep on going.