A proposal had been given to me to consider getting some 'powercut' at midpoint of the probation period. The purpose was to allow room for learning so as to allow me to better equipped in future. 'Power restoration' will still be possible when I'm ready.

Many things came through my mind when I was offered that - what would i be in long term, how long will the 'powercut' be and what next? Will I be behind others again?

It took me some effort to move out from the league of 'bottom feeders', so this consideration had been something, somewhat, troubling.

No matter how, it's still masked on the outside.