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Sunday. The last day of a short month, that means new challenges lie ahead a new month.

Just done with laundry and now awaiting for my haircut by Stella; something missed out for so long as the heat is unbearable ever since the hair has grown so much after 2 months; too much things to run that has maimed my time for optimum personal grooming.

The guppy fries by Red and Yellow Mummy are doing fine, with proper feeding and care, they should all grow well without much trouble. I'm sure dearie will be delighted seeing all of those little lives swimming around.

Evening will be dinner at her aunt's place, a weekend mostly spent with her. I'm glad that my carwash had been 'delegated' to others by visiting the carwash duing fish shop visit. That certained allowed me to leverage some time to do the more important things over the weekend, such as laundry and water maintenance for fishes.

A quick visit later to Yun Feng before making my way to keep dearie company.


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Battery bay is almost fully lighted after several sips of the human octane; if not for the company’s rule, I would take in my pure octane, Vodka that will turn me in to full alert mode, Turbo!

Raincooled lunch makes the walk to Halfway House at minimal sweltering; once again, passing Spring@Langsat.



Learnt from dearie that one of the agent’s apartment at Kovan was about 1000+ sqm; which I think, would be common for such homes as old as 30 years ago…with the limited land now, it’s about prestige and land price that affects property pricing built on it.



I appeared listless during lunch as I had missed the workout and slept through the 1.5 hours till 7am; bad start for a week as my energy level could not be jump-started without that profusion of sweat in the early hours of Monday morning, and also in view that I have 2 lessons on consecutive weekdays.



Sweet surprise from dearie’s family for receiving ang pows even before I could visit them! I felt so bad…I had not gone to their place yesterday in view of the late hours after dearie had arrived at my place for revision and catching the movie, Sex and the City.

Wonder who this is…

I appeared in the pavement of Bedok Walk, near BMC where it was the home ground of 40th Singapore Company. This time, it appeared to be some sniper training where we had to climb up and hide among the tress with sniper camo. A short run down and quick jump into the trees just beside the canal, which resembled my old home at Bedok North Ave 4, soon, another switch scene shows exercise cancelled due to rainy weather…


I was taking a bus with my parents for lunch and then realized that lunch at work is 1315hrs and not 1100hrs; alighted the bus and tapped EZlink card outside bus.

The morning felt like I’ve taken an undiluted dose of Maiyuri’s superhuman medicine which raises the human sensory that things are a little on slow motion; could be the lung clearance phrase; boosted now with coffee.

Finally managed to get Serene her Vday gift at SK Jewellery; a beautiful pair of earrings which are more practical than fresh flowers. The sparkle in her eyes made me happy that I’ve not let her down and cheered her tired evening up.

Dark chakara has been momentarily sealed as I’ve received an apology reply from my aunt.

That aside, feeling better as it came to my mind that being happy is indeed a choice. If I choose and want to be, I will be.

The dark chakara has started to be drawn out as each moment passed while talking to dearie about the favouritism problem that exists in my family; the feud is within my family so I have assured her that it has nothing to do with her. What upsetted me is that she has given word of not coming to my place anymore even when invited; something that must be put right in my home before the family union can be established.

Unless they are able to give me a very valid reason that dearie wasn’t invited for the reunion meal this time, I will not, ever stop to get to the bottom of this.

For too long I have been keeping it all to myself, my aunt may at her best, try to mediate matters, but some things can never be resolved just by a few words, some emotional strains or tears.

My bio-bro may be doing better in life, now having his own home, so just that alone will be sufficient as my reasons to set things right at home. I’ve taken the first step to say hi to him, but what has he did in return? If nothing improves all these while, it could only mean that we’re not destined to be brothers despite spawning from the same cell as twins.
I am the avenger, even if it takes for my body to be cast into fire and hell, I will not stop.

I will gain power and avenge for all that’s lost.

A warning sign has been issued after learning that Mia has contracted chickenpox and still did not go back on medical grounds.

Christopher was making a joke out of it in high hopes of contracting so as to be able to stay at home for 2 weeks.

The conflict resolving the non-invited goes on till I get a valid answer.


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Dearie's finally coming home this evening...it's been so quiet without her despite having invited by Kulvim to his place yesterday evening for a CNY gathering.

Dinner's done, after watching more than 10 episodes of Bleach at one go; something which I've missed out for the past few months while engaging in my part time studies at Kaplan.

Come morning tomorrow, will be back to work, with all the calls answering for the next 8 hours.

Wonder if dearie's had her dinner?  She'll only reach home after 11 tonight; so it's a tensed-up heart while awaiting for her return...

Awoken at 9am and managed to get those muscles moving, though, not a total completion of workout, before going to meet with Wan who is returning from a short trip to Thailand.

It's the 3rd day of CNY without dearie, like a short period of separation which leaves me missing her so much.  With Valentine's D+1, we are unable to make it a special day, but still able to make everyday a Valentine's...I never liked the idea of squeezing with other people at malls, or restaurants on this special day, no doubt there will be some really interesting deals that comes along the way...

I had a great catchup with Wan, who helped me get a bottle of Vodka from DFS, over a meal, and his sharing of his life story was truly a sad one; from his family, to his work in AIG back then when he just joined, but he has made a turning point at where he is working now; a big jump in role and remuneration package is something really worth my respect.  It's a little far from his place from our catchup at Simei, but he still went back to office after our meetup.

When I'm at his level, that will be a good time for me to say that I can win the battle confidently, at a 100% rate, like Josef Djugashvili code of Battle; he'll never fight a battle unless he can confidently win it.  That's in reference to the preparation of knot-tying between me and dearie; much "weapons and ammo" are needed as it's the far greater role that a man has, to bring the "weapons and ammo" for life sustenance.

Evening time - at Kulvim's place by invitation.

I appeared in a place that resembled Bedok Methodist Church's old kindergarten, where I was there to check in for my annual ICT; the check in style was traditional:  find your name on a paper nominal roll and sign in; and I saw QM's name printed in Chinese wordings.  Strange.  Later on I sat at a sofa and in there was Soh negotiating with QM about not wanting to go outfield, and the MO appeared later saying it'll be difficult to take care of men who are in camp and those in the outfield, while explaining why QM wanted us all to be outfield; simply for the reason of easier handling.

In came Deen, who was wearing a traditional Malay costume and we talked a little about his red top, which one of the guys told me that it looked a little creepy to see someone coming out from the darkness in a red top.    We later talked about the LCD t-shirt which has lights that animate the beat of music, so he went on with a little demo and it certainly was impressive.

A later switchscene shows me talking to Fish Leong, who has recently wedded, and it was a moment of confession that I truly loved her.  She also knew that when I told her all about my feelings for her, which was at a lobby-like place, only snow-washed and quiet.  I was accompanied with 2 of my guy friends, one of them resembling like Huang Pingyuan (reminded me of Boon Ping whom I knew in Bel Air) who waited for me outside.  She asked me why didn't I join her when she went Chang Mai the other time, and I asked if she was there for work purpose, that was replied "I was there to cut an album, so might be there for up to a month at most".

I related to her about the constrains faced at work about taking leave, and she also understood that...deep down in my heart, it was really heart-breaking to know that she had married someone else; that hint she had given to me was somewhat like telling me that she's single and needed someone to care for her when she was going to Chang Mai.  An indeed tearful session, I wished deep inside me that she would leave some space in her heart to love me, though we can't be together, before bidding her farewell.  "Huang Pingyuan" said to me, "Let's go, all of us here had loved her before".

Another place appeared about a US aviation suicide mission where plagues were put into place to determine who will go and the pledge of no regret if KIA.  Flick.  A snow mountain seaside appeared with an ice-ostriche, a creature which can fly and yet has a flat bill, and a Cypress, which resembled an owl, except with blue shimmery feathers was on a survival "documentary" where 2 predators came after them by air and landing, in attempt to capture them for food.  Next scene shows even myself, battling with these creatures, and what was I to do when my survival is threatened, along with 2 comrades.  I tailed the Cypress and use an umbrella to maul it to death head-on, and in the survival package was some liquor to keep us warm, as well as something that resembled fried buns used in chilli crabs.

Final scene shows myself soaked in a pail, under running tap water and someone scrubbing my head, talking about a murder of me on Lirome, a colleague in my current workplace, and was to be punished by international law since it wasn't committed locally.  Where did it happen?  I really have no idea.

9:00 AM.  Such a fantastic dream.

Learnt from Chloe that her hubby was rudely questioned about their displeasure on misrepresentation by Starhub technical helpline after getting their iphone, where the guy first claimed the 3G model is the same as 3G S, after she encountered the inability to install some Appstore applications into her phone which was meant to be for a 3G S model.

What horrided her was the kind of attitude she got when a night shift duty manager called her hubby, whose name mis Johnny, gave tons of excuses on non-exchange policy after the phone was returned with a scratch, saying "am I right to say that you caused the scratch?"  He got his deal - Chloe sent a mail to their head, Diana Lee, which the matter was acted on with short notice.

Serve him right; with such a poor attitude and yet being able to hold the position of Duty Manager, it certainly has some room for questioning even on his basic customer service skills: disrupter like the EMP, and using verbal traps on a dissatisfied customer with a wife who is at a higher experty level than him.

Glad to know that Chloe managed to get things sorted out her way after that lengthy email to Diana Lee.

I recall the time where I had dearie to put over at my place after our company's Year End Party 2009; I was compelled to sleep in the hall as my mum's concerned about us sharing the same room. 

It is for the sake of peacekeeping that I hold the horses, while making my mark towards where I want, and should be, financially.

I'm finally coming towards the end of my Diploma course at Kaplan, where I can finally have my weekends liberated till I commence my Degree program, which I've learnt, to last for 1.5 years, from Robert, who has graduated there and moved on to another place for his work.

This is a quiet evening without dearie as she's once again, away with her family at Genting, for Chinese New Year.  My plans were initially going to fish more wild guppies, but considering it's a festive season, it might not be a good idea for me to move into my mission zone as that area, though a private property estate, will definitely be unusually populated.

It'll be another indoor evening.

It's the first time that Lunar New Year's Day is on a Sunday; that also spells good as it means we have 2 public holidays - an ultra long weekend for most of us; unless those in the Armed Ah Gong rice-eaters have to perform their regimental duty; I'm so glad that I'm out of that silly organisation where delinquent warrant officers who exists to pick on junior specialists;  something which the armed forces have never been able to eliminate over the years.  Why do I know that?  Simply so as I was a victim of not just one, but 2 of them.

A recovery nap was done in the afternoon after lunch; after a throbbing headache greeted me first thing in the morning after staying up in the night, while "watching over" dearie for her early departure to Genting, and also while playing Perfect World; managed to level up to Level 35 at last; a game I've not played for eons since I started dating dearie, and also with the study commitments.

So far nothing's up except for a couple of visits; and then afternoon, my aunt came around 4+ while I was still on a recovery nap charge mode.  Weather had been searingly hot; so the best anti-baking measure was to stay indoors; considering the fact that it's Day 1 of Lunar New Year, most shops are closed, so nowhere I can go for a window shop, or just an Urban Walk.

This year's reunion was done as a lunch, at Yummy Crab, which was a 9-course meal, that certainly filled my stomach to a substantial level, though still undefeatable.

Good thing we had it all done in the afternoon as the evenings will definitely be crowded and packed, since it's a Chinese New Year Eve; mum had been chanting the phrase of a family union considering that our family's pretty small in numbers, and I know exactly where she's getting at.  Before going down, she had hinted to me to say hi to my bio-brother, whom we have ceased to talk more than a decade ago.  I've made my move, since he doesn't reciprocate, I shall hold my ground.

The evening was spent at dearie's place with a traditional steamboat dinner which I could feel the family's warmth, though most of the time is spent watching TV at her place, after dinner, along with 3 cans of Heinekken which is still within my capacity.  Having her family's warmth compared to mine makes it odd that my aunt had to specify this is only restricted to family members attending only...I can understand now why dearie is less keen to come to my place after knowing all these; plus it wouldn't be a good idea for me to question why she's not invited.

For now, let the matter rest.

It's another time where there isn't sufficient food again when having mini celebration after office hours; the official release time was at 4pm, so we had the sign from Lawrence to get the food earlier before the "vultures" from Outbound team came...and true in enough, the food was actually just 4 pizzas, 2 shepherd's pies to cater for 120 people; the 4 $50 Robinson vouchers were given to the 4 best dressed who were nominated electronically.

All's well that ended well; I could return home earlier before picking dearie up after her lessons.

A little mentally tensioned like a tightly-wound clock spring that was relaxed after Lengleng asked how I am smilingly - been awhile since I got to chat with her; with her nice personality, it sure made the place a little happier.

I guess she could sense that I'm happier 'here' but doesn't want to mention names...indeed Eric is a poor leader who can be a nice person as a friend, which I can vouch for; those days after the 2nd renewal of contract had been the darkest days and they are somewhat over.

Now for the next phase...


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Another beautiful lunch with Serene after learning that Fernando was backfired with his rude remark when Serene tried to be nice by buying him a drink yesterday to subdue the conflict; that’s just a personality issue which is inbuilt.




4 more minutes before commencing work; and I’m glad I’m eating after 1, so that I have to endure a shorter period of time towards line closure.



The time seems never enough when attempting to do everything on your own, especially to grasp that source of additional source of income, for me, it’s online.



Katrina just asked me about the news of my resignation, which so far, has not come to past, but it will be, in time to come after the limit has overflown.

It's been awhile since I've posted online; some are drafted locally and pending publishing - more to come.

Had a vital full charge last night and feeling much better; the mental drain had been maximum though no fatigue of the physical hull.


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Another beautiful lunch session with dearie but it was quite a wait for our food ordered at Halfway House, probably due to the crowd…the hunger has stirred an uprising of heat within, which had been subdued with the tastily cooked noodles which had been one of the most famous delights in the vicinity.

A massively tired day as I tried keeping myself awake during the first lesson f Business Accounting, which was one of the core modules of the course.




Just one more module, 2 more subjects and I’ll be graduating from this 10 month long, part time course which has deprived me of a Saturday evening from planning any short trips with dearie, who is also ongoing for her studies.

Appeared in a stadium like setting which was drizzling, with a built-in swimming pool into the cement steps / seating, which was wide enough just for 2 average adults to swim abreast; there was a guy who swam blazingly fast, though obese, but when he came out from the water after a length’s swim, the eyes carried an aura that the technique was somewhat for competitive purpose; fastforward to walking through different groups of amateur soccer teams that the setting resembled an England soccer stadium. The teams were swaying side to side on the cemented floor, holding shoulder to shoulder, somewhat like to the rhytm of some music.



I had moved to a different group in blue, and stayed with them but later moved down the steps and the guy whom I spoke to, said he called me but I can’t hear;



Switched to an army cookhouse which allowed us to self pack for takeaway meals.

I've finally done the workout for the week; it has been mentally-challenged for me the last few days, draining much of my chakara.

The rest of the evening shall be spent book-mugging, understanding and knowing how to answer the questions that come along in this Sat's exam before keeping dearie company on the phone before the night retirement.

Company event weekend will come just a week before the big Lunar vacation of the year - one and only long public holiday of each year.

Is dearie busy? Haven't heard from her since my workout commenced till completion, after raging those muscles to the Contraction Beat. I have to sophicify those moves towards a better bod.


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Looks like a BMW 320CiA...spotted along Tembeling Road. My dream to ride only dearie in it!


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It’s the first day at Linda’s team, certainly feels refreshing; the first team to do early log in and clear calls after 5pm; that will put me at ease for the rest of the month…


Lunch has been rescheduled at 1:15pm, which is overlapping dearie’s…and yes! Finally get to lunch with her as long as I’m still here…being able to lunch with her is great; as it’s a good time for us to spend time together even during our working hours; being able to see her brings also an unspoken joy from within, though being a great Master of Emotional Masking. Later lunch also means I have to spend less time on calls before the line is closed…so I can have less emotional torment by some of the silly callers. Sunlit, and seeing dearie seated at Halfway House is certainly sufficient to make my day somewhat brighter.

Nothing further to comment workwise, but just simply would say that I’m still on the constant look out and casting my seeds outside to get leads for where I plan to go.

It’s the 2nd of the last lessons before examinations, so it’s step up time for gathering of knowledge ammo to fire at questions this coming Saturday. It’ll be over soon, but can’t wait to get it, do it, and get out.

Graduation from Kaplan’s Diploma program is on the way soon in 4 months. My hope is that the upcoming sessions will be as interesting as the 1st 4 subjects we had; CF, MA, FA and IF. Julian, who is teaching us in this POM topic, is a little detached but lessons are still interesting enough with his fantastic humour; I think we can still keep in touch after finishing the exams.