1:44am

Current work is not what's called a career in my context, but a training ground for greater challenges ahead.

Great is the fellowship and company in my workplace which I have found fun and acceptance of my cranky personality to bring joy and laughter to people around me...would I make a good comedian like Gurmit who never failed to amuse me with his role as Phua Chu Kang in the sitcom? A huge resounding "no" to that.

I strongly seek recognition for my efforts which I pushing myself against upper limits to move up as I deal with struggles in various dimensions.

Here comes the question which I had constantly been thinking through: Should I cut the rope and dive into realty, or should I continue pursuing higher levels of employment? The latter will require certain skillsets and the SED (standard entry document): Qualification, which I do not have an established specialised field.

Thoughts of re-entering military life did seep in a little but past experiences has shunned me away from reviving the vicious cycle life again.

Materialistic cruelty is subtle yet very true in this world that we live in, that forces a person to success or drives one to failure depending on how it is being handled. Some people handle finances well by making debt work for them and turning them into wealthy beings over time. Some, on the other hand, plunge deeper into it with poor handling or poor usage, resulting in a devastated life, or even leading to their deaths.

A different perception of this world, one would say, but again, facts are facts.